Desiderata, by Max Ehrmann

Posted by admin on Wednesday Jul 22, 2009 Under Uncategorized

I’ve been feeling pretty down lately about a few things, but reading this cheered me right up.  I’ve bold-faced the parts that really stuck out to me and are significant to how I’m feeling, and I am feeling better already.  Maybe you’ve read it before, maybe you haven’t.  Either way, I hope it gives you a little inspiration, too.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

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Fried Avocados FTW!

Posted by admin on Saturday Jul 18, 2009 Under Uncategorized

So, we went to the OC Fair last night.  We didn’t go with the intention of riding any rides, we only went for the reason a lot of people go – to try the weird food!

We got there around 6pm and the weather was already nice and cooled down (and it actually got chilly enough in the night to warrant a light sweater).  While making our way around the fair looking for the crazy edibles, we ran into my best friend from elementary school.  She was there with a friend of hers and so we decided to ask them what stuff they had tried so far and she told us they had tried a lof things but were still hungry and on the search for real food! LOL So we said goodbye and continued to make our way through the fair.  However, after looking around, a lot of the stuff didn’t sound very appealing – fried White Castle burgers, fried pizza bites, fried twinkies and oreos, fried cheese curds – while I’ve read mixed reviews about all of those things, they totally did not sound appealing at all.  However, there were two things I knew we had to try:


Fried Avocados: this was something that sounded yummy to me especially since I love avocados, but when we got there, I wasn’t so sure about it.  However, we gave it a try and OMG…they were deeeelicious.  Have you ever had the avocado eggrolls at The Cheesecake Factory?  These were similar to those, except without the yummy sauce that you get at the restaurant.  However, with a squeeze of lemon juice and a little bit of ranch, these were just as good, if not better!  They weren’t too oily either, which hubby and I appreciated as we shared them.


Zucchini Weenie: I was not into trying this at all, but c’mon, where else are you gonna get this crazy concoction?  So hubby and I decided to give it a try.  Despite what my friend had said about these being tasteless, we still had to give it a shot.  I knew I wasn’t gonna like it – I don’t normally eat hot dogs, and when I do they have to be all-beef (no lips and asshole for me! haha).  I’m not a fan of zucchini either.  However we sat down to try both and this one totally SUCKED.  It was absolutely tasteless!  The batter was okay, but the zucchini was suuuuuper mushy and had a gross texture, and the hot dog seemed undercooked – and after a few bites, we knew why – because it was a freakin’ Vienna Sausage!  Hubby took a bite and half of it fell out and we saw the unmistakeable shape of that little canned wonder meat.  Ugh!  I had taken a bite before I knew this (which I promptly spit into a napkin), but had I known, I wouldn’t have let that thing anywhere near my mouth.  Hubby forced himself to eat it (we had just spent $6 on it, after all), and we decided that we weren’t gonna try any other fried stuff after that disaster.

However, we were still in the mood for some actual food, so hubby got a bratwurst and I got a BBQ beef brisket sandwich – all for a measly $17!!  *GROAN*  Afterwards, we picked apart a funnel cake and then decided it would be a good idea to walk it all off.

We saw lots of interesting people, and some interesting stage performers, including some chinese acrobats.  They were AMAZING!  We also went to visit the Al’s Brain exhibit, which was 20 minutes of life that I will NEVER get back.  I mean, we laughed here and there, but thing I appreciated the most about this exhibit was being able to sit down for a while after making the stupid mistake of wearing flip-flops to the fair.  After we got out, we continued to walk around, and I was amused to see a giant stuffed neon pink monkey riding the overhead cable cars:


It was about 10:30 by this time, but we weren’t ready to go home yet, so we picked up a deeeeeeeeeeeeelicious red velvet cupcake from CB’s  Cupcakes and sat down to watch a dueling piano’s show.


Then, we hit up the midway and tried our hand at a few games, and decided to call it a night.  I love the fair!

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Hot Stuff!

Posted by admin on Friday Jul 17, 2009 Under Uncategorized

My poor dogs.  This heat is really getting to them!


I often find M sitting just like this in front of the fan, panting away.  She’ll do this for about 5 minutes and then take off and go back to playing.  She repeats this cycle multiple times a day because it is just so freakin’ hot!


I feel bad for them during the summer – it’d be like wearing sweat pants and a sweatshirt 24/7!  So, tomorrow they are headed off to the groomer to get their summer cut.  We’re trying out a new local groomer because we are trying to support small business, so hopefully they are worth it!  We got the recommendation from our neighbor so I’m sure it’ll be fine.

I’m very worried about them overheating in the summer, so I leave a fan on for them downstairs while I’m not at home.  But I wanted to see what else I could do to help keep them cool, and I saw this awesome article on and thought I would share with all of you:

Keep your pet cool
Dogs are much less efficient at cooling themselves than people, so they are more susceptible to overheating. A dog’s normal body temperature is 100-102 degrees, and they have sweat glands on their nose and pads of their paws. They pant and drink water to cool down, so always have fresh, cool water available for your dog — whether on a walk, in the car or in a tip-proof bowl in the house or yard. If your dog is an outdoor dog, bring him inside during the hottest hours of the day, and provide a shaded area in the yard, preferably in a well-constructed doghouse, making sure he always has access to cool water, since the hot sun can quickly make water too hot to drink.

Heat exhaustion in dogs is often caused by dehydration and overheating from running or over-exercising during hot weather. Heatstroke can occur when your dog’s body temperature is too high for a prolonged period of time, and both can lead to brain and organ damage, heart failure and even death. Short-nosed, thick-coated breeds and (just as with people) puppies, seniors and dogs with respiratory, cardiovascular and other health problems are especially susceptible.

Some of the signs of heatstroke are panting hard, staggering gait, rapid heartbeat, dazed look, listlessness, restlessness, dark red or purple gums and/or tongue and vomiting. If you suspect a heat-induced illness in your dog, gradually lower his body temperature by moving him to the shade or air conditioning, apply cold packs to his head, neck or belly, or immerse in cool (not cold) water, giving small amounts of cool water or ice cubes to lick — and then take him to the vet immediately.

There are many products on the market that can also help keep your dog cool. Consider a bed that can be filled with cool water and stays dry for your dog to rest on. There are also cooling pads (for laying down), vests (that wrap around your dog’s belly) and cooling bandanas and collars (wrapping around his neck) filled with nontoxic polymer crystals that expand in water and cool your pet for hours as the water evaporates. Simply soak the reusable and hand-washable item in cool water for 15-30 minutes, towel dry and place on your dog.

Never leave your pet alone in a car during hot weather
Culturally, dogs are more a part of our life and our lifestyle than ever before — going along for a ride in the car, whether running errands or on the family vacation. Just as with children, we must be aware of the danger in leaving our dog inside a parked car in the summer heat. Simply parking in the shade or leaving the windows cracked is not enough. Windows collect light and trap heat inside the car, sending the temperature to dangerous and deadly levels rapidly. In many states, it’s against the law to leave a pet unattended in a parked vehicle in a manner that endangers the health or safety of the animal.

A car’s inside temperature can increase as much as 40 degrees in an hour — with 80 percent of that increase within the first 30 minutes. On an 85-degree day, the temperature inside a car with the windows cracked slightly can reach 102 degrees within 10 minutes!

Carry two car keys with you, so if you have to leave your dog in the car for even a few minutes, you can leave the engine running and the air conditioning on, with your dog inside and the doors locked. Take the second key with you so you can open the door when you return. And if you see a pet in a parked car on a hot summer day, go to the nearest store to have the owner paged, enlist the help of a security guard or call the local police.

Plan for power outages
If you leave your dog home alone with the air conditioning on (and all the windows closed) while you’re at work all day, and you live in an area where brownouts or rolling blackouts occur during peak times of power usage, make sure a neighbor who will be at home has your house key. That way your neighbor can check on your dog and open all the windows if the power goes out.

Protect your dog from sunburn
Many people don’t realize that dogs can get sunburn! It’s especially common in pale and short-haired dogs, usually on the bridge of the nose and tips of the ears as well as the belly, groin and insides of the legs (because of the sunlight that reflects up from the sidewalk and hot sand on the beach). Use a sunscreen — labeled specifically for use on animals — on your dog’s nose and his ear tips. You can’t put sunscreen on his underside because he’ll lick it off, so be careful when walking your dog or taking him to the beach in the hot sun. And if you shave your dog’s coat in the summer, be aware that it will make him more prone to sunburn.

Protect your dog’s paws
Dogs’ paws can get burned on sidewalks, asphalt and sand if walked during peak sun and heat. So check the temperature of the surface with your hand before walking your dog — if it’s too hot for your hand, it’s too hot for your dog’s paws. Walk during early morning or evening hours and never just after a meal. If you must walk your dog during the afternoon, make it short and keep him on the grass or at the water’s edge when at the beach to protect his paws.

A day at the beach may be out
Don’t take your dog to the beach unless you can guarantee a shaded spot. The hot sand reflects the sun and heats up your dog (and you!) quickly. Always remember to take fresh water along — drinking salt water can dehydrate your dog. And make sure to rinse your salty dog off after a dip in the ocean.

Supervise the backyard pool
Each year, puppies, dogs and small children accidentally drown in backyard swimming pools when left unattended. Unless she knows how to get out of the pool, your dog’s quick dip to cool off can result in tragedy — so make sure to teach her where the steps and ladder are and how to swim to them, so she doesn’t exhaust herself finding a way to get out. Don’t allow your dog free access to the pool and always supervise her when she takes the plunge.

Dogs are part of the family, so remember to give them the same hot weather care and protection you would want and they deserve!

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Cranky Pants

Posted by admin on Thursday Jul 16, 2009 Under Uncategorized

Is it me, or are lots of people out there being really cranky lately?  This economy fo SHO has taken it’s toll on everyone, I get it.  I just don’t see why everyone has to lose all common decency and start treating each other with disrespect.  I think that if people laughed more, like hubby and I do, then things wouldn’t seem so bad.  But maybe I’m being too optimistic; sometimes you get into a situation that you think you will never recover from, and you wonder to yourself how anyone can ever expect you to smile and laugh again.  Everyone handles stress and bad situations differently, and I am definitely one of those people who will get suuuuper down about everything.  But as quickly as I am down, I get back up again.  I just don’t have it in me to keep being sad or upset, because I start to think about all the good stuff I have in my life and I realize the good always outweighs the bad.

weddingFor the last few months, I feel like things have been pretty iffy, especially as far as my job went.  I wasn’t sure if I was going to be getting my position that I wanted/needed in the fall, but it turns out I did so all my worrying was for nothing if not to make me even more grateful for how things turned out.  I’ve got plenty of other worries that I don’t want to get into right now, but I have to say that for some reason, keeping everything else in perspective helped keep me in a pretty chipper mood and reminded me about the abundant blessings that surround me everyday.  For instance, my marriage is at this point where I still feel like I’m dreaming.  Did I really find this man who treats me like a princess every day even though I can be a royal pain in the ass?  This man who sings songs for me while playing the guitar, even though often times I’m too distracted by something else to give him my full attention?  A man who will leave his favorite computer store after 5 minutes because he knows I’m bored, yet will stay in my favorite clothing store 2 hours without complaining while I try on outfit after outfit.  Damn, I am pretty lucky.

And then there’s my dogs.  Laugh if you will, but they are my babies.  Honestly, when I’m not with them, I miss themDSC00017 terribly.  I wish I could take them everywhere with me, and I constantly worry about them while they’re at home.  Did I leave a chew bone on the floor?  What if they choke?  Do they have enough water and food to last them until I get home?  What if there’s an emergency, how fast can I get to them?  Hubby and I can’t wait to have children one day, but for now, these little girls are our world.  I always find a way to bring something home for them whenever I go to the store, and I love to spoil them with tons of hugs and kisses when I get home from work.  I remember once that Cesar Milan said that petting a dog and giving them hugs and kisses doesn’t benefit them, it benefits the owner.  I totally disagree with that statement – animals love to be loved and will show you the same in return 100 times over.

So, that’s just the short version of what I’m thankful for, ’cause it’s 2:15 am and I am just about done rambling for the night.  But I do just wanna say this: to any of you who are going through a tough time right now, don’t forget to remember all the good things you have going for you, whether it be your health, your family, your doggies, WHATEVER.  If we never had anything tough to deal with, then what would we have to look forward to when something good happens?  I’m not saying forget your troubles, I’m just saying learn from them and look forward to the future, ’cause as much as it may not feel like it, things will always get better:)

Don’t worry about a thing, ’cause every little thing’s gonna be alright…” – 3 Little Birds, by Bob Marley

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aKa aRieS

Posted by admin on Tuesday Jul 14, 2009 Under Uncategorized

You like my oh-so-5-years-ago typing up there in my title?  hahaha – I actually still think that style of typing looks dope, but I’m also under the impression that you could be considered quite the douchebag if you still type like that, so I only do it in jest.

Anyway, I titled this post “A.K.A._Aries” because that’s pretty much the new alias I’ll be going by from now on with everything I do online.  Remember what I said in my last post about trying to hide my identity because of the type of work I do?  Well, okay, it’s like this: I don’t have anything to hide about myself and I’m not afraid to tell it like it is, BUT (!!!) recently, something I said on the FB about a sitchy-ation that happened at work got lots of co-workers talking.  It wasn’t anything bad, and they weren’t bad-mouthing me, but you know how that ish goes.  Someone started talking about it and by the time it made it’s way up the ladder, it was totally misconstrued and really just had nothing to do with my FB post anyway.   Suuuuuuper lame, right?  Yeah, well, it got all the way up to the principal and she was totally nice to me about it and said I needed to be careful with what I say online because it can be taken apart and interpreted the wrong way and stuff like that is immediate grounds for being terminated.  I totally appreciated how she handled the situation and I learned my lesson.  That’s why I changed my name everywhere and blocked certain people from seeing anything about me on my FB profile.  My blog is the one I really wanted to change though, so thanks to my hubbs, it’s now only available at  So if you had my wordpress link in your reader, you’ll need to update it.

Oh, and there is a reason behind the “AKA Aries” other than the fact that I am indeed an Aries.  In my rebellious teen years, when I first met my best friend, we kicked it with a bunch of hip-hop heads, mainly because her high school sweetheart was into it, and two of his best friends (Alec and Nate) were well known around the underground scene.  I was always into the Power 106 FM type of hip-hop, but when we started kicking it with these guys and I was lucky enough to see Alec and Nate perform a bunch of times, then I was totally hooked on the underground scene.  Anyway, through them, I was totally thrown into the whole scene, and I met and kicked it with a bunch of really awesome graffiti artists, including Dame and some other cat named Moe.  My bff’s bf, who was a pretty dope artist himself, went by the name Taboo, and he knew how much I was into art and stuff, so he decided to take me and my bff with them when they went to go bomb on some trains near the Artesia exit on the 5 freeway.  I was beyond stoked and couldn’t wait to watch them in action.  We got there at around 12:30 in the morning and we hopped a crazy high wall and walked really quietly to the trains.  We passed a woman named Louise, who was a heroin addict living in the empty lot behind the tracks (they knew her pretty well), and I remember she said to me “Take care of my boys!” – too sweet!  So anyways, they got to work – there were about 6 of them – and my bff and I just kicked it not doing anything.  Her bf asked us if we wanted to paint and we were soooo excited!  He gave us a couple of cans and we went at it.  Actually, my bff went at it…I had NO IDEA what I would do.  She was making butterflies and being all girly, but I really wanted to put my mark down.  And then it hit me – I would just call myself Aries ’cause it sounded dope and ’cause I was into astrology at the time haha!  So that was the ONE thing I wrote on the train “AKA Aries”.  I didn’t get to write anything more because all of a sudden, I felt hands tugging at my feet telling me to get down off the train.  I looked down and it was Alec telling me that we had to hide because there were train guards coming from the train that just pulled up…how I didn’t hear the train, I’ll never know.  We all ran behind a broken wall that was in the middle of the empty lot (I know, right? WTH was it doing in the middle?) and the 8 of us huddled together and hid for 2 whole hours.  When they finally left, it was already 6:00 in the morning.  The guys finished up their work, took pictures by their pieces, and then we left.  One of the best times of my life, honestly. I went home that morning and tried my hand at drawing and came up with this (don’t laugh, it was my first attempt!):


And that is how I came up with my alias.  I can’t believe you just read that whole stupid story, but thanks anyway if you did!  <33

p.s. don’t hold my past against me, ’cause it’s IN the past, ya dig? 😉

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Take a picture, trick!

Posted by admin on Saturday Jul 11, 2009 Under Uncategorized

*the title is just a line from a song, I’m not calling anyone in particular a Trick.  except for maybe Aurora. 😉

So, I know it’s been a hot MINUTE since I’ve posted up, but as you can tell (hopefully), I’ve been making more of an effort to update.  And you’ll probably see a different tone to my writing – don’t trip!  I’ve decided to be more relaxed with my writing and be more of “myself” with my blog.  Because my profession is a public position, I have to be very careful with the things I say (so for those of you on my FB, that was the reason I took out my last name! I don’t wanna be found!).  But here, on my blog, I hate having to censor myself.  So without further ado, a post filled with random bloggy goodness – and pictures, too!  Awww, sookie sookie now!

Random Entry #1

So, we moved out of the condo in the YL in April.  Aside from certain events, there are lots of other wack reasons as to why we left, but I ain’t EVEN trying to get into it, so let’s move along shall we?  Cool.  We have settled into our new 2 story town home and we are loving it. There’s a yard for the dogs, a garage, and a driveway (yes, I’m excited about the driveway.  shut the front door, already! haha).  This place is definitely older, so we’ve had our ups and downs with it, but still, I am loving it!  I don’t even mind all the kids around the neighborhood – they are all sooo sweet and very respectful, and our neighbors are pretty dope, so that’s a good thing.  My only wish was that we had direct access to the garage from inside so I could get the laundry easier, but whatevs, it’s nothing to sketch about.  But overall, hubby and I are less stressed out and with a significantly lower monthly rent, we are definitely happier too (not caught up on our bills by a LONG SHOT, but happy nonetheless) :)

Random Entry #2

Last year marked the 10 year anniversary of my graduation from high school.  You know, with such ingenious sites around, I really didn’t see a need to shell out $80 a piece for hubby and I to go and find out what everyone’s been up to; besides, I still keep in touch with those I want to keep in touch with, and most of them didn’t go to the reunion, so I didn’t care to, either.  However, in getting to talk with my friend Pheebs, who also did not want to pay all that money for hors d’ oeuvres and cocktails, we decided we should have a reunion of our own, all based on this picture:

This was taken on the day before we graduated, after our baccalaureate mass.  From left to right, it’s Ann, According To Abby, Pheebs, and yours truly.  Now, I didn’t normally hang out with these girls much during high school – at least, not outside of school.  But even in school, I was always jumping around from group to group, and they never made me feel excluded from their group whenever I did come around.  We share sooo many laughs together and I was lucky enough to have a few classes with each of them, which is how our friendship grew.  We even performed the Tinikling for International Day!  Anywho, Pheebs and I got back in touch through CrackSpace many years ago, and we kept in touch ever since then – she even made me one of the ninangs (tagalog for “Godmother) for her baby boy (the only boy out of her 6 children!).  Anyway, she uploaded the above picture onto the FB and we got Ann and According To Abby in on the idea of having a reunion.  We decided to hit up the Aloha Breakfast at Paradise Pier hotel in the Disneyland Resort.  We had a great time and we stuffed ourselves with ono grinds!  Ann brought along her her boyfriend and their adorable daughter, Pheebs brought along her 6 (six!!!) children and her hubby, I brought the hubbs, and According To Abby brought along her bf – in spirit!  He was actually too tired from their drive over here (they live 4 hours away) but we all thought of him and agreed he was missing out on some good food! hehe :)  According To Abby also brought all of us some super awesome doggie treats that she makes from scratch!  She sent a bunch of samples for my dogs a few months ago and they immediately became obsessed with them – no lie, it’s like they were possessed!  When they saw the bag, they got all wild and crazy and would scratch at me to get to the treats!  Little bastards! hehe just playin 😉  But honestly, I never saw them react to treats like this, so you just KNOW there’s something special about what According To Abby makes.  Check out her site and you can order some for your doggies too: Barkscotti and Pupcakes

Random Entry #3

Hubby and I went to Las Vegas  a few weeks ago.  We went on a Wednesday and left on Friday, so the crowds weren’t too crazy, but seeing as how it is summer time, there were still quite a few party people in the house.  I’m a moron who left my phone at home so I never got a hold of According To Abby (sorry girl! next time!), but hubby and I were still able to have a great time.  We’re not gamblers, so I think we spent a little over $2 on the slot machines (I know, we’re such risk takers).  Honestly, I feel like we work too hard for our money, and I don’t wanna go and give it to Las Vegas – they have enough! We stayed at the Luxor hotel, which I had never been to, and I loved it there!  The room was great, and I took advantage of our bath tub and hit up the Lush store for a bath bomb“Sakura” bath bomb (which looks like a huge Jawbreaker) and a “Pop in the Bath” bubble barpop.  I’m not normally a bath person, but when I saw their store in the mall that connects Luxor and Mandalay Bay, I went for it.  OH MAH GAHHHHH.  I didn’t want to get out of that bath tub.  As soon as you stepped in, it was like you were slipping on silk pajamas (that sounds super lame but work with me here, I’m trying to get you to appreciate this ish).  The bath bomb made the water smell soooo awesome and feel incredible, and then when I crumbled the bubble bar under the running faucet, I got a tub full of fluffy, fragrant bubbles.  If you ever see a Lush store near you, hit it up!  You won’t be disappointed.

Random Entry #4

In May, Hubby and I rolled out to the Rhythm Lounge in Long Beach to see two of my favorite reggae bands, Kontiki and Katchafire.  We were also there to check out Tribal Theory, because hubby’s cousin’s bf plays bass guitar for them and we hadn’t heard them live yet (and lemme tell you, they KILLED it! sooo good!)  But I was really excited to see Kontiki because Tiana (my dance instructor and overall someone I really admire because of her humor, her creativity, and her exceptional taste in music) was gonna be up there playing with them and of course I wanted to come out and support her!  This night was off the CHAIN!  So much good music, so many good vibes, and so many old friends I ran into.  But you better believe it was HOT in there!  I was sweating like a hooker in church, fo SHO!  But it was worth it to see Tiana on stage and to hear Katchafire live.  You know, music has always been important to me, especially reggae music.  There’s something about it that is so positive and so uplifiting and you can’t help but be in a good mood when you hear it.  And I have always been a sucker for a dope beat, which is why hip hop has always been a love of mine.  I remember, in high school, that’s all I would do – listen to hip hop (Lauryn Hill, A Tribe Called Quest, The Pharcyde, Dilated Peoples, Common, Timbaland, Hieroglyphics, to name a FEW) .  My mom and dad never questioned my music.  Even when I would blast it from my room and they were treated to an earful of swear words and booming bass, they never said anything because they knew I loved music.  Growing up, I was always singing and tinkering on the piano and always bugging my parents to sign me up for music lessons.  I even wanted to play the drums with the high school band but my ass of a teacher said that I should try playing the flute first – little did I realize he only wanted boys playing the drums.  LAME!  But whatever, I enjoyed playing the flute and feel glad that I know how to (especially after seeing this!).  But still, those drum beats always called to me.  Late last year, I started taking lessons in playing the toere, but classes were put on hold after our instructor hurt himself.  I miss it, and I think that once I got a feel for it, I didn’t want it to stop!  That’s why I think so highly of Tiana.  She dominates in a field where it’s mostly male, and she brings it so hard that you can’t help but be blown away!  I was a fan of hers long before I knew her, and now that we’ve spoken and I’ve gotten to know what a dope person she is, I have so much more respect for her.  Besides, she’s a Tribe fan, so she was bound to be good in my book :)  Everyone who knows her should feel lucky that they do.

So anyway, I blabbed on and on and on (duh! what’s new, right?).  If you made it this far, kuDOS man!  I was just trying to waste time while hubby took a nap on the couch, but he still isn’t up (can’t blame him though, he didn’t sleep last night at all and then left at 5 in the morning to go fishing haha). dance Oh well.  I’m gonna look for something on tv before I knock out.  Tomorrow, I’m headed into the studio to make my costume for a show that Tiana and family are putting on on July 25th.  I’m so excited!  This will be my second time performing with the purple team and although I’m not good by any means, I have wayyyy too much fun and they don’t ever make me feel bad for my abundance of mistakes, so I will definitely be giving it my all to ensure that I don’t embarrass them OR myself!  Peace out, kids :)

Reggae music in the morning keeps your head right; Reggae music in the evening keeps your soul tight – “Reggae Revival” by Katchafire

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No, you don’t have my consent

Posted by admin on Thursday Jul 9, 2009 Under Uncategorized

I had a whole huge post that I just wrote.  It was 3 miles long and just went on and on about how pissed I was at a super rude comment that someone made about me today.  However, I took the time to think about it and I have decided to let it go.  Having this anger is not worth it to me, and I am choosing to assume that this person meant no harm by what they said.  I know the truth, and I know that what they know is NOT the truth…sooooo, I’m fine with that.  :)  They can think what they want and I won’t hold it against them.  They are not a significant person in my life anyway, so really, it would just be a wasted effort to spend any more time getting angry or holding a grudge about it.

And I gotta say, having this type of attitude instead of my typical approach (cry or get really frustrated about it) is refreshing.  Of course, it helps to be able to unload all about it to the hubbs and have him make me feel better about the whole thing :)  Hooray for my awesome husband!

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent – Eleanor Roosevelt

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Being Contemplative…and stuff

Posted by admin on Wednesday Mar 4, 2009 Under Uncategorized

I admit it. I’m a doormat. And this is no one’s fault but my own.

I’m a person who is easily influenced. Easily. So easily that sometimes it’s downright scary!

That’s why I do not drink alcohol, I do not smoke, I do not do drugs or take pills (except for the daily fish oil pill for those all important Omega 3’s), and I do not often put myself in situations that would cause me to compromise any of those commitments I made to myself.

No, I’m not perfect and I don’t claim to be. Yes, I did have quite a few drinks at my bachelorette party – but hey, we were celebrating! And fortunately for me, my friends are rad and aren’t into the whole stripper thing (you will NEVER catch me in one of those places! EVER!) so they were fine just going out and dancing with me – I was never in a place that I was uncomfortable with or without people I didn’t trust. But I’m getting away from my point.

I’m referring to being easily influenced by PEOPLE. I’ve always been this way – and I think it’s a combination of trying to people please + trusting people way too easily + a little bit of trying to stay on someone’s good side (insert sheepish grin here). Am I making any sense? Anyway, I finally grew a spine when I got married. Ed empowered me to stand up for myself and he helped me realize that my true friends are okay with me saying no to something that I didn’t wanna do. And after I realized this, it was very liberating!

Ugh, where am I going with this? Well, I’m referring to a very yucky situation that I am indirectly involved in because of my association with this place and these people. I won’t get into the situation too much, but recent events surrounding this event have made me realize that I do not like the person I have become in the last few months. I’m in the unfortunate position where I have to “take sides”, be secretive, be cautious of who I trust, and overall, just be someone who I am not. I would never put my friends in this kind of situation, and I hate that it’s happening to me. But there’s one very important factor in all this – and that is that I am trying to protect a group of people who are extremely important to me and who I love a lot. I am trying as much as possible to keep them out of the loop and ensure that they are not involved in this situation at all because it’s nothing that they should be concerned about. They have already seen too much and they should not be subjected to that – it is just.not.right.

So how does this tie into me being a doormat? Well, for the last few months, I was hearing both sides of the story. I was hearing the point of one, and being told by another how that point was incorrect and vice versa. I knew for myself what to listen to and what I should let go in one ear and out the other, but I am so disappointed in the fact that I never stood up for myself. I never said “You know what, I really don’t want to be involved in any of this.” I just kept listening to both sides, all the while wondering what I had gotten myself into. It doesn’t matter who I think is right in this situation or what I think should be done, because there is nothing further that can be done. But the disappointment in myself is still there.

My parents raised me to be a good person. They made sure we went to church every Sunday. They busted their bums to send my siblings and I to a Private Catholic school. They taught me what was right from wrong. When I was going through a really horrible time emotionally in my life (gotta love those awkward teenage years!), they tried their best to be there for me. At the time, I held them responsible for my feelings and so I dismissed everything they did and doubted their love for me. Now it’s 10 years later, and I realize more than ever just how important it is for me to have faith in God, faith in my parents, family and friends, and most importantly, faith in myself. Things don’t always work out how they’re supposed to…but then again…maybe the way they worked out is how it’s supposed to be! So with this situation and what I am resolving to do, I believe that it is what needs to be done and how it’s supposed to be.

Look, I know what I need to do to be a good person. I know that I need to stay away from the negativity and I know that I cannot allow myself to be easily influenced by outside forces and situations that will try to sway me from believing in what I know is right. I am done being a doormat. I am going to stand up for what is right and make sure that I am not compromising my morals, and at the same time, I am still going to make sure that the group of people that I am trying to defend in this whole ordeal will not be affected (I can take it, but they can’t – it isn’t fair to them at all). It really shouldn’t have to be this hard, but it is what it is and I have to make the best of it.

I admit that I am worried, though – not so much for myself, but for those involved in this whole ordeal. I read somewhere that when you worry, you are saying to God “This is too big for you to handle”, so instead I will offer it up to Him and allow Him to work his way into the hearts of everyone involved so that they will know peace instead of anger, doubt, and pain. And I know that there may be one of you reading this who is directly involved in this whole drama, and I want to reassure you that I am not giving up on you and I still support you in all that you do. You have done so much for me and I would be a fool to turn my back on you when you need your friends and all the support you can get. I am just saying that, in the best interest of the little ones and you, I really need to step back, stay out of any further involvement, and allow things to run their course, whichever direction it may go. But if it comes down to affecting those who I am defending, then I won’t be keeping my mouth shut any longer. I believe this is in their best interest and that is what matters most to me.

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord and has made the Lord his hope and confidence. – Jeremiah 17:7

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L is for the way you looooooook at meeeeeee…..

Posted by admin on Monday Feb 16, 2009 Under Uncategorized

Last week was just lovely.

On Tuesday, February 10th, hubby and I celebrated our 2 year wedding anniversary.  I was afraid we weren’t going to be able to do anything because he had been at work since – get this – SUNDAY!!  He works for a video game company and heads the web design department, so when they are getting ready to launch another site for another client, he has to work long hours.  I was so worried about the lack of sleep he was getting (in those 53 hours of straight working, he probably got a total of 10-15 hours of sleep?) because he had done this same type of crappy schedule a few weeks before, but I have to admit I was also afraid that we weren’t going to be able to celebrate our anniversary.  I quickly got over that concern and decided that even if he did come home in time for us to go out to a nice dinner (which he was working so hard to do), I was just going to make him stay home and sleep!  I ended up visiting him on Monday night with the dogs in our car, and I brought him dinner and let him sleep in my car for an hour.  It was so sad to go home without him and I couldn’t sleep that night.  He finally did come home on Tuesday to celebrate our anniversary, but I canceled the dinner reservations we had at Ruth’s Chris and opted for something closer to home – steak sandwiches and fries at a local diner!  Totally low key and a totally empty dining room – we had a great time :)  Then, we both went home and knocked out at 9pm because we were both suffering from a lack of sleep (him moreso than me, of course!).

On Friday, we headed to Bellflower for the BFF’s 30th birthday.  She decided to have a Pajama Party because she didn’t want any of us driving in the rain trying to find some fancy restaurant and that was fine with me!  We had a great time, yummy food (she made sure there was cheese pizza for me! so sweet!) and we played a few games with everyone there – Cranium, Catch Phrase, and Murder.  Hubby and I had SUCH a great time!

On Saturday, we decided to keep it spontaneous for Valentine’s day.  First, we woke up and just hung out in bed with the dogs, talking and laughing about anything and everything.  We finally got out of bed around noon (hahah – hey, the weekends were meant for being lazy, right!?!?) and got dressed to take the girls to Petco to have their picture taken.  I had heard online that they were setting up a Petco photo booth that was Valentine’s Day themed and since the girls are at their cutest and fuzziest, I wanted to take advantage of it!  When we got there, though, we saw that all they had set up was a ghetto looking “Petco Kissing Booth” covered in pink xerox machine paper and some dude with a digital camera taking the photos!  I was expecting a semi-professional photographer and a nicer background, but for $5 each, I should’ve known better.  We passed on the pictures and instead bought the girls their Valentine’s Day present – 2lbs worth of treats from the treat bar!  That should last them a good long time :)

We then took the girls home and decided to go have lunch at TGIFriday’s.  Yeah, yeah, not so much on the romantic tip right there, but hubby and I aren’t really the sappy romantic type, so it was all good.  Before we headed out the door, I remembered that we had gotten a coupon in the mail for this restaurant, so I grabbed it and we left.  I was in such a great mood from being with the hubby that I overlooked a lot of the mistakes our waitress made (forgot our drinks, gave me regular fries instead of sweet potato fries – you know, stuff that isn’t TOO big of a deal) and even asked her to send her manager over so I could give her a compliment.  I kinda did that for her because #1, I felt bad that she had to work on Valentine’s Day, #2 she was very professional and handled her mistakes professionally and gave us a sincere apology, and #3 because the guy who was helping her bring the food out gave her the biggest look of “WOW you’re a MORON!” when I said she brought out the wrong fries – she looked embarrassed!  And you know what happened when she came back with our check?  She said her manager gave us one of our meals for free!  That was AWESOME and totally unexpected, so that made our day even better!

After that we headed to Target just to look around, and then we headed to the Wal-Wal Boutique (thanks for the nickname, Marcela!) and ended up getting our Valentine’s Day gift to each other – Tennis Rackets and tennis balls!  It’s been too cold and rainy to go play, but I can’t wait until we can!  Before we went home, we stopped at Albertsons to buy some firelogs for our fireplace and some snacks for our movie night at home.  So far, a pretty rad Valentine’s Day, no?  When we got home, hubby lit the fire for me and the girls while he made dinner.  After eating, we decided to play board games instead of watching movies and it was soooo much fun!

On Sunday, we got up to go to church and then we went to Ikea.  It was the weirdest thing…while walking through Ikea, we heard a live band playing and thought to ourselves that Ikea never does things like that – but I liked it!  The sound of the music was making me wanna run right over to where they were, but I didn’t wanna distract hubby from what he was looking at – but I finally gave in to the beat.  We wound our way through the maze of furniture and came upon a crowd gathered in one of the faux apartment setups and heard the crash of cymbals and the twang of guitars.  We both thought to ourselves how cool it was that Ikea was being all funky like that, and then we realized by the looks on the faces of the employees, this was not a planned thing.  We got close enough in time to hear everyone chanting “ONE MORE SONG! ONE MORE SONG!”   We kinda hung around to see them clean up their stuff, and I started to laugh when I saw cart after cart being wheeled out with their cymbals, drum heads, guitars, amps, and other stuff – how did Ikea miss them coming in and setting up?  Anyway, I came home to try to find out any news to see who it was – hubby thought it may have been Modest Mouse since a few of them were wearing Modest Mouse t-shirts, but I knew it wasn’t them because they didn’t look like the members.  Turns out, it was a band called Will Crum and I found a video of them trying to pull off “The Swedish Job”.  It was actually a pretty well-thought out plan and quite elaborate – watch it, and you’ll see how they were able to maneuver their way in without being caught :)


The band itself was really really good and now I’m on a hunt to see how much more of their music I can find!  These guys look like a lot of fun and hey, they’re talented too!!  I can’t believe we got to see something like that – it was so awesome!  I know the Ikea employee at the end of the video was really upset, but the band handled her request to stop very graciously….and then one of them came out into the crowd and said “THANK YOU IKEAAAAAAAA!” and everyone cheered and I even saw one of the employees yell back “Rock On!” hahaha – so awesome, ‘ cause he was like in his 50’s.  Oh, and if you look up Will Crum on YouTube, apparently they did this same kind of spontaneous playing at a Wendy’s!  I’m so glad they do this stuff in Orange County – I wanna run into them again :)

After that fun afternoon, we came home and just relaxed for the rest of the night.  I haven’t had a week this great in a long time – good food, LOTS of time with my husband, free LIVE music from an awesome band, and shopping!!  I hope everyone else’s was just as great :)

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Speaking of…

Posted by admin on Sunday Feb 1, 2009 Under Uncategorized

Ah, my lovely blog, we meet again.  Can we say “overdue on a blog” much?  There’s been plenty to write about, but I just never got around to it ’cause I was simply too lazy to sit at the computer and do anything OTHER THAN check my myspace, facebook, and email.  Yeah, that’s super lame, I know.

Speaking of lame, I woke up at 8am today – SUNDAY MORNING!  I try to sleep in, but I just can’t and that blows hehe.  But anyway, I’m sitting here on the couch waiting for hubby to wake up so we can go out today.  I’m thinking we’re going to the OC Swapmeet just to look around and not buy anything because it isn’t in our budget.  Speaking of budget, a big thanks to KristiBug for introducing us to  I cannot believe how much this (free!!) program is helping hubby and I with our budget!  We already used it for the month of January and for the first two weeks, this program had me sitting in a corner, whimpering about how much our spending is out of control.  It is just so in-your-face about all your spending, and it even sends you emails with summaries of your spending for the week (or daily, it’s up to you) and emails on when you’ve exceeded your budget.  It will even send you email reminders on when a bill is due!  The only thing I was apprehensive about was having to link it to our bank account.  Hubby dealt with fraud twice regarding his bank account and he didn’t wanna go through it again.  Still, I trust Kristi and knew that if she was having luck with it, we would too.  I signed up for it even though hubby said not to, because I just wanted to see how it was.  After I realized its awesomeness, I fessed up to hubby and told him how great a program it is, and he totally agrees!  Most of our spending was on food for lunch and dinner, so I made a change and started packing our lunch and cooking our dinners.  Besides being healthier for us, an added bonus was that I even went through our pantry and was able to come up with dinners for almost 2 weeks using just about everything we had!!  No extra shopping needed = money saved!!  We are ready to start fresh for the month of February and I can’t wait to see how much money we are able to add to our savings and how well we stick to our budget for everything!  It’s like a challenge, you know?  And I am ALWAYS up for a good challenge.

Speaking of challenges, another friend at Bourland Buzz recommended a website as well, called  This is also another in-your-face kind of tracking website, but for your weight, health, and nutrition.  What is it about January that makes everyone wanna start working out and getting healthier?  Well, yeah, it’s  ’cause of the whole “new year, new YOU” idea, I’m sure, but I wonder how many people are really able to stick with it?  I hope that I can really stick to my plan – I’ve already actually lost 20lbs since december, so I am feeling much better about myself, but I’ve still got a long way to go.  We’re hoping that this year is the year that we have a baby.  My doctor said not to try until I lose about 30lbs since I may put on that much during pregnancy, but I want to lose a LOT more than that!    I figured we’d increase my chances of not losing this baby if I was healthier (that’s kind of a “duh” statement, isn’t it?), so I am working out more (we got a great deal on an elliptical machine after Christmas), eating better, and thinking more positively (“We will have a baby this year…we WILL have a baby this year” – that’s my mantra while I work out).  (Btw, have you seen that book “Eat this, not that”?  Fabulous book – and you can find most of the info right here without buying it).

Speaking of babies, you know what irritates me about them?  Well, nothing, of course.  But I feel like everyone who knows that I had a miscarriage is sooo super sensitive to telling me that THEY are pregnant – like as if they think I can’t handle the news and be happy for them.  Wtf, seriously??  My good friend Alexis just had a beautiful baby girl in December and I was over the MOON excited for her when she told me.  I’m still waiting to meet the little princess, but I’ve got presents for her when I do.  Anyway, I am really grateful that she didn’t think I couldn’t handle her good news for her and told me right from the beginning.  Then there is my friend “Mama Hawker” who is pregnant again.  This girl was there for me through my whole pregnancy, knowing what I had been through because she unfortunately went through it a few times as well.  She is always wishing me good thoughts and hoping that we realize our dream one day, and I can’t thank her enough.  I’m glad she was able to tell me that she was pregnant and know that I would be nothing but excited for her – which I am!  I wish I could say the same for others – I actually just found out that 2 other “friends” of mine are pregnant as well.  I put the word friends in quotations because while we’re not necessarily the best of friends, we’re good enough friends that I would be in their circle of friends to be told that they are pregnant – I told them when I was!  I dunno, am I just being petty?  I know that some of you out there know what I mean, and some of you don’t, and that’s ok.  I just had to get this off my chest because it really bugs me, and I don’t know why.  I think it is because I feel like that’s the only thing anyone ever remembers about hubby and I in regards to children.  Yes, it happened, and I am willing to accept that it may even happen again.  I won’t take it any less hard – in fact, it’ll probably be even harder.  But I am holding out hope that one day it IS going to happen.  For now, we are just living life one day at a time – saving money, going out more (while staying in our budget of course!), and generally just spending more time together and enjoying each other’s company.

Speaking of spending more time together, hubby and I are planning on taking two trips this year – just him and I!  In April, we are going to Las Vegas for 3 nights and 4 days.  We’re hoping to make use of our Fly with T-Mobile offer so that we don’t have to drive, but flying there is so expensive!  Fortunately, we are finding really great rates for hotel rooms over there, so I will be checking again to see if the flight fares have gone down closer to the date and then Vegas here we come!  We are also hoping to go to New York in November.  We were going to go there in April, but we’d like to go when the weather is more winter-y.  After all, we don’t get winters like that over here in California (as was evident by the 80+ weather we were having for a while there just after Christmas!).  This also gives us a good chance to save up more money to do more things!  We plan on staying in New Jersey, but RIGHT across the Hudson Bay, so that we can get a 4 star hotel for a fraction of the price as it would be in NYC.  The awesome thing about this is that the hotel is right on the shore, so we can see NYC right from our window and it is only a 10 minute ride through the Holland Tunnel or a 30 minute ferry ride to Manhattan.  Well, that’s the plan anyway – hopefully we can stick to our budget and hubby will finally get his first taste of New York!

Speaking of hubby, he is finally awake!  I’m going to go work out first and then we are headed out.  Oh, and if any of you is not into the SuperBowl like I am, you should totally check out the “Puppy Bowl” on Animal Planet.  It is ADORABLE!!  They get puppies from Animal Shelters and let them play in a scene that is set up to look like the super bowl and it is HILARIOUSLY CUTE!!  The commentary is awesome too, because the puppies’ behavior is so unpredictable that they have to keep up with it and come up with witty remarks.  If you have kids, you should let them see it too :)

Have a great day everyone!

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