I don’t EVEN wanna know…

Posted by admin on Friday Mar 26, 2010 Under Uncategorized

…how long it has been since I last posted.  SHEEEEESH!

There was a point in time where I blogged every.single.flippin.DAY.  And then it was a few times each week.  That progressed into a few times each month.  That turned into once or twice every few months.  And then everything sort of went into sleep mode and I got scared about my blogs being taken out of context, so I just stopped writing.

I missed my blog, though.  A lot.  (and just to make you realize how long it has been since I’ve posted, it took me damn near ten minutes to remember how to log in here.   And then it took me an additional 5 minutes to remember my username and password.  And then?  I wasn’t even logging into the right area to edit my blog because I forgot that this has been redirected to my hubby’s server so that I could have customized backgrounds.  Blah blah blah…basically, I am a LAME-O)

In my head I always had some witty story or something profound that I wanted to share, but I never got around to it.  I actually started to get too lazy to update, too!  Mostly because I am anal retentive and my (limited) background knowledge of HTML caused me to feel that I couldn’t update a post without using pictures and making sure it was aligned and all sorts of B.S. like that.  But again, a lot of it has to do with my line of work.  It’s hard trying not be found these days, but it’s not like I have anything to hide, so who cares if I’m found, right?  I don’t believe you should live your life one way in public, and then another way in private, and when I blog, I say what I want to say without holding back.  And yet?  That’s the kind of stuff that can get me fired.  Why?  I have no idea.  Well, strike that – I do.  My line of work is in a civil service to the public which requires me to be a certain way, and while lots of people don’t agree that their outside life and actions can affect their workplace, I actually do care and know that what I do in public affects my job.

Despite all that, I think it’s about time that I pick up again on this blog of mine.  I’m not going to un-password protect my previous posts, but I don’t want to delete them either.  I obviously wrote about stuff that at one time was important enough to me to jot down, so they will stay there, but still sealed for only my eyes :)

I doubt anyone reads this anymore, and I’m actually okay with that.  It was never about getting the most readers or comments, it was always about expressing myself through my writing, which is something I’ve always enjoyed doing.  Let’s just hope I can keep up with it like I did when I first started blogging!

And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise.  The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.  -Sylvia Plath

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